A Drastic Change

Before NP Highschool, i came from a small private school called Mt. Laurel. This school had barely any homework and no grades. Not to mention only twenty students were in my grade. I had known most of these kids since nursery and i had one teacher from first grade until i graduated. This class was like a family to me and i will treasure all the years i had spent with them. But the school only went up to eighth grade, so i came to NP highschool. I was terrified for this change because i felt like everything was changing at that time in my life. My brother was leaving home to go to college and my mother was coming back home from school to spend time with me and my sister. So i was practically shaking on my first day of school. The first two months were horrible. I was not used to the bell that rang all the students into the busy hallways ringing with the sound of teenagers screaming over each other to be heard. I was not used to having to meet new people and not knowing who anyone was. And last but not least, i was not used to the testing. In fact i had no idea what a scantron was when i first came. I couldn't see many of my friends because most of them lived about an hour away and were busy with their own change in life now. It really depressed me and i felt really alone for a good part of that year. I desperately wished I could have had close friends again. So as i had done multiple times before, I relied on my good friend literature. I spent countless weekends reading because i had no one else to hangout with. Yeah i had friends in school, but there is a difference between school friends and becoming friends out of school. I felt awkward hanging out with people out of school. Because I just felt like i didn't fit in and i hated how shy i was. Eventually my reading of books become all textbooks and my weekends became more busy with plans with my new friends Aubrey and Lucy. Although Freshman year had its ups and downs, I am really happy I read as much as i did. because without it I would have been much worse off and reading kept me entertained. Plus like many other times in my life, provided me with comfort in knowing something in my life has not changed.